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Acceptance
It happened the first of October. It felt like a gunshot even though I don't really know how that feelslike.
I felt like being in a movie or being thewatcher. Being a witness of my own dream. It wasn't adream though it was
as real as can be. I got hit by a car while on a bicycle. I never thoughtit could happen to me. The shock followed
me for along time wondering how could it happen? Many questionskept on coming up not accepting what really
happened and preventing me from healing my wounds. The important part today for me is how do I deal with a trauma?
The accident happened at 7:15 in the evening.The car hit me sideways and I fell of my bike. Being totally awake
I thought how I could prevent the fall.I surrendered and hit the ground chipping my frontteeth and something was
definitely wrong with my chin.I was bleeding heavily and cried about my teeth. Myhusband was immediately by my
side and did what neededto be done. All I could think of was teeth.Looking back I want to see this symbolic
and tellmyself maybe it happened for a reason to prevent abigger accident down the road. I had a standard
helmet at the time of my accident. Days later, my husband bought me a helmet with a mouth guard. I didn't
have the courage yet to go out and try it out. When the timeis right I will.I look in the mirror and wondering
who is that lookingat me and a poem comes to mind from Otti Pfeiffer:I dream that somebody could need me my
warm skin, myaffection, my obtrusive tenderness. I dream that somebody accepts me just the way I am with
unrhythmed wishes, old worries and an unfinished character.I dream that somebody let me be of value
without educating me, somebody agrees without exertion.I dream that I don't have to defend, fight
or explainmyself to be loved.This poem is close to my heart.
When I look in the mirror I realize that I dream that I could need myself and my warm skin with fixed teeth and
a scar under my chin.
I dream that I accept myself exactly the way I am and I hug myself and shout to the moon that my Spirit is
stronger than anything in my life. I dream that I am capable of big love that I can give to me. I know now
that I am not dreaming anymore and I nurture being wounded.
Let's all heal and let's all accept ourselves exactly the way we are. Let's celebrate this life and make
a better you to make a better world to have more peace with the people we live with, give a little more
and understand a little better. It will make a difference. Let's honour oneself and honour the world around us.
It is needed at any time and it is needed now more than ever.Let's reach out and be safer with each other.
Take action! All be blessed.
Irmgard Schafer
Email: Irmgard Schafer
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