My
love affair with DH Lawrence
by Alexandra Leggat
The last drop of Avelox enters my pneumonia
scarred body. I had spent seven days holed up in isolation in Niagara
Falls General Hospital. A broken down institution with a reputation as
ill as its patients, even the healthy had died there. I couldn’t wait
to go home. All I could think about was curling up in the safety of my
own bed with a good book, my husband close by.
Throughout my life I have sought solace in books
and on many levels the great authors have never let me down. Once home I
headed straight to our trusty book collection, all spines faced out but
it was D.H. Lawrence’s, England, My England that leapt out at
me. I bought this collection of Lawrence’s short stories about ten
years ago from a small book store in Falkirk, Scotland, on one of many
pilgrimages to my homeland in search of restitution. I’d always loved
Lawrence and read the book on the train from Glasgow to Norwich. I was
young, had other things on my mind, unlike the continual lingering
effects of Son’s and Lovers and Women in Love, it didn’t
leave a huge impression at that time. Read me now it begged from the
shelf, read me now and I’ll rejuvenate your weary soul. So I grabbed
it and retreated to my bed to begin my convalescence.
He was working from the small common, beyond
the small brook that ran in the dip at the bottom of the garden,
carrying the garden path in continuation from the plank bridge on to
the common. He had cut the rough turf and bracken, leaving the grey,
dryish soil bare. But he was worried because he could not get the path
straight, there was a pleat between his brows. He had set up his
sticks, and taken the sights between the big pine trees, but for some
reason everything seemed wrong.
For the first time in seven days everything
seemed right, that strength and perfection in Lawrence’s prose, the
precision. I read on, the pages swelling like a river with that voice.
The tale comes to life and brings with it the English country side, the
struggle of a family man facing his last days of peace before war and I’m
lost in the depth of the countryman’s struggle, of the country’s
struggle, of a human’s continuous struggle. I’m transported from my
sick bed along side Egbert on the edge of the common, hypnotized by the
title story England, My England and for the next twelve hours we
did not leave each other’s side D.H. Lawrence and me.
My husband comes into the bedroom to check on me
and I confess that I’m falling in love with D.H. Lawrence, his
stories, his voice, the detail, the imagery. "You have to read
this, honey," I say. He looks at me funny, checks my pulse, my
temperature and leaves. Perhaps it was my raw state of mind, my hungry
psyche that latched onto to and fell in love with the truth in Lawrence’s
work, the sensory perception, the authority of the characters or the
complete paradox of what one might expect from the man that wrote the
controversial Lady Chatterley’s Lover, had most of his work
banned and art work confiscated. I knew he was honest but I didn’t
realize how uncanny he was in pointing out the foibles and wickedness of
human nature. Which he observes with the precision of a raptor scoping
from the treetops. This is where his brilliance lies.
In "Tickets, Please," which I believe
has become one of my favourite short stories of all time, up there with
O’Connor’s "The River" and Hemingway’s "Snows of
Kilimanjaro," a group of female ticket takers of a single-line
tramway turn on their philandering boss.
This, the most dangerous tram-service in
England, as the authorities themselves declare, with pride, is
entirely conducted by girls, and driven by rash young men, a little
crippled, or by delicate young men, who creep forward in terror. The
girls are fearless young hussies.
As I read on I discover that the man who charms
each and every one of them is in for a rude awakening as they lock him
in a room and terrorize him physically and mentally.
He went forward, rather vaguely. She had taken
off her belt, and swinging it, she fetched him a hard blow over the
head with the buckle end. He sprang and seized her. But immediately
the other girls rushed upon him, pulling and tearing and beating him.
Their blood was thoroughly up. He was their sport now. They were going
to have their own back, out of him. Strange, wild creatures, they hung
on him and rushed at him to bear him down.
Jesus, I think, the horror. My sympathies were
torn, the poor women, the poor man lying defenseless on the floor and
Lawrence wrote this eighty-four years ago, these mad women turning on
their boss. I run into the backyard in my pajamas and slippers and tell
my husband that this is one of the best short stories I’ve read; the
intricacy of detail, emotion, imagery, symbolism, humanism prevalent in
every story, every thought, every character. I imagine I’m seeing
these stories through his eyes, right through those eyes that felt and
lived every moment of his short and tumultuous life. I waved the book in
my right hand. Colour returned to my cheeks, energy flooded my apathetic
veins.
In Anais Nin’s book D.H. Lawrence, an
unprofessional study, she writes, Lawrence approaches his characters not
in a state of intellectual lucidity but in one of intuitional reasoning.
His analysis is not one of the mind alone, but of the senses. He
recognized a deep, subterranean connection between what he called the
‘dark gods’ in us, entirely apart from the sophistries of
intelligence …Lawrence was patient. He gave his characters time. They
are to find their own way and hour of resurrection.
I devour one story after the other, "Monkey
Nuts," "Wintry Peacock," "Samson and Delilah,"
"The Blind Man," and on. Every character pops into view, the
way they walk, the slumping of the shoulder, the chewing of tobacco, the
large breasted barmaid, the blushing cheeks of an older woman’s young
lover and the eyes of a blind man. Every line heaving with empathy,
heart, soul. There’s love among the haystacks and mines and pubs and
terrace houses lining cobbled streets, miners, and soldiers, barmaids
and mothers and the heavy English sky bares down on everyone, amongst it
all an exhibition of peacocks being tormented by the wind.
The short story is profoundly underestimated,
but I’m beginning to realize that short stories are like bad dogs. It’s
not the dog’s fault, it’s the owner. It’s not the medium’s
fault, it’s the writer. A good writer can write anything and
everything of worth, like Lawrence, poetry, criticism, plays, novels,
travel books and the short story. A good short story is as satisfying if
not more satisfying than a good novel. A novel is its own thing, in
process as much as the reading of it. There are people who enjoy
canoeing, the whole portage thing. Then there’s the adventure seeker
drawn to the carnival ride. What makes a carnival ride exciting is its
rapidity, the instant gratification, the element of surprise, like a
moment in life, it happens and then it’s gone and one reflects. What
made it wonderful was that it happened, and then it was gone and the
reflection.
No stranger to Lawrence, my short story writer
husband Salvatore Difalco, rereads "Tickets, Please." Laughing
out loud, he says, "Wow, I forgot how good he was. This is better
than any short story writer writing today, not an ounce of pretense, or
self-consciousness. He’s so organic."
Provoked by Lawrence, we discuss what we think
makes a good short story writer and the irony that the two hardest
things to do well, write poetry and short fiction, everyone does. A
short story is like surgery, no room for mistakes. And you can’t teach
a writer empathy, or life experience, which are essential to fiction.
Lawrence believed that life had to be lived. He argued that instincts
and intuitions are more important than the reason. "Instinct makes
me run from little over-earnest ladies; instinct makes me sniff the lime
blossom and reach for the darkest cherry. But it is intuition which
makes me feel the uncanny glassiness of the lake this afternoon, the
sulkiness of the mountains, the vividness of near green in thunder-sun,
the young man in bright blue trousers lightly tossing the grass from the
scythe, the elderly man in a boater stiffly shoving his scythe strokes,
both of them sweating in the silence of the intense light."
And perhaps it’s intuition and instinct that
draws us to certain books, to certain writers at a time in our lives
when we need the very thoughts, ideas and events they are depicting
between the covers. I’m not sure which takes the credit for my speedy
recovery, the Avelox, or England, My England, the spirit of Mr.
Lawrence himself. I err on the side of the latter, a fortuitous
medicine. I place Lawrence on my bedside table and give him a wink of
the eye to all that is real.
Alexandra Leggat is a short
story writer. She was once interviewed
in TDR. |