TDR
Interview: Tony O'Neill
"More addicts, cheaper drugs,
more guns, and a virtual police state"
by Matthew Firth
Tony O’Neill is a writer you should
know. If you don’t know him, read this interview, get to know him and
then go out and buy and read his new novel – then you will know him
really well and come to realize that he is one mother-fucking,
seriously superb writer.
O’Neill’s new book is Down and
Out on Murder Mile (Harper Perennial, 2008). The narrative is
centred on an unnamed male protagonist’s life on heroin and other
drugs in the heart of the seedy side of London, England. But the novel
is not a confessional or cautionary tale – it a wide-eyed gaze into
the perilous highs and lows of a life teetering on the brink of
collapse, yet surviving and thriving in the throes of the next fix.
O’Neill has written a contemporary
gem of a book that looks at what it’s like to kick against the war on
drugs in these heady days of extremes, zero tolerance and other
fascistic schemes. The novel follows rapidly on the heels of his other
books: Digging the Vein (Contemporary Press, 2006), Seizure
Wet Dreams (Social Disease, 2006) and his excellent poetry
collection, Songs From the Shooting Gallery (Burning Shore Press,
2007). O’Neill is a bold young writer in full stride, pumping out
brilliant, lively prose – best represented in his new novel, Down
and Out on Murder Mile.
Now living in Brooklyn, I caught up
with O’Neill via email …
See O'Neill's website at http://www.tonyoneill.net/
[January 2009]
MF: Okay, let’s start with some
background. What are the essential Tony O’Neill literary and
biographical details Danforth Review readers need to know?
TO: Born into a working class Irish
family in the north of England. Joined my first band at 16. The new wave
of English bands in the 90s like Suede and Pulp made music my obsession.
Deferred a university place to join Marc Almond’s touring band, and
then joined Kenickie. Saw a lot of the world. Ended up in Los Angeles
aged 18 with a wife I had known for 3 weeks, and plans to take over the
world. Flash forward 2 years and I was addicted to heroin, and married
to my second wife, a heroin addict 10 years my senior. Returned to
London, fleeing drug dealers and the police. Joined the methadone
program. Met Vanessa, who realized that there was a human being
underneath the track marks and missing teeth and fell in love for the
first time in my rotten life. When I started my detox, the words started
coming, and I haven’t been able to stop them since. Had a child, and
finally grew up a little before I turned 30.
MF: You write fiction, non-fiction,
short stories, poetry and you’re a musician – what form of
expression are you most comfortable with? How do you decide what form is
best to express an idea or tell a particular story?
TO: I don’t really play music any
more. I devote all of my time to writing in all of its forms. You know,
some days (or months) the prose won’t come, and poems are just in my
head screaming to be written down. Other times, there will be no poems,
but the prose comes. It isn’t planned out in the slightest. The best
bit of advice I ever got was from Dan Fante.
He told me "Keep writing. Don’t stop. If the stories won’t
come, write a poem. If the poems won’t come, write a play. Just don’t
stop writing."
MF: Your new novel – Down and
Out on Murder Mile – has just come out with Harper Perennial. So,
you’ve gone from the small press to the big press in just a few years.
Does this surprise you? How do you explain it? What’s different now?
TO: Yeah, it was a total surprise. Of
course when you write your first book, you have the whole fantasy of
"One day, I’ll be in a bookstore, on a big press, and I’ll be
drinking champagne on a beach somewhere, and lauded as the greatest
genius of my generation." But beyond these fantasies, did I
realistically expect ANYTHING to happen with my writing? No. I couldn’t
even think about what might happen because I knew that if I did start
indulging in those fantasies, and it didn’t work out, then the
disappointment could kill me. So I always try not to get involved in
what-ifs and just keep writing what interests me. As time has gone on,
there have been a lot of people who have come forward who like and
support my writing. That is the most important thing to me. Each time
something like this happens – when a magazine picks up one of my
stories, when someone writes about me, when the Harper deal came through
… I am always quietly amazed. In terms of experience, it has been
great. I have an editor that I’m really fond of and who had been very
respectful of my work. One of the biggest things that helped my career
is finding an agent who I like, and who has been very nurturing towards
my stuff. Not in terms of telling me what to write, but in terms of
understanding and "getting" what I do and realistically
pushing me as a writer.
MF: Did anyone try and convince you
to take the "memoir" route with this book? Related – I get
the sense that it is crucially important to you that your work be
presented as a novel. Is this right, and if so, why?
TO: Yes and yes. In America people
seemed puzzled as to why I would choose to present the details of my
life in a novel form. Here in the U.S. we are hooked on memoirs. My
inspirations were writers like Bukowski, Burroughs, Miller and Huncke
who used their lives as the building blocks to construct novels. There
are a handful of memoirs that I have liked (Jerry Stahl’s Permanent
Midnight is one of them) but mostly I find it to be a pretty dull
genre and one that offers no surprises. There is a tried and tested
formula to the memoir and I had no interest of presenting myself that
way. When Perennial picked up the book, it was never once suggested that
I could repackage the book as a memoir and that’s one of the reasons I
knew they were the house for me. They GOT that whole thing. You walk
into Carrie Kania’s (the head of Perennial) office and it’s just
stacked high with great books. She has a bigger Bukowski collection than
I do.
MF: A few decades past writers such
as Alexander Trocchi, William S. Burroughs, Herbert Huncke and others
wrote about heroin and enjoyed the literary limelight a fair bit because
of it. They were not the first by a long shot to write about heroin. But
what’s different or has changed with this style of first-person junkie
novel 40-50 years later, with, for example, your novels?
TO: Well Trocchi, Burroughs and Huncke
are quite interesting examples because they were doing something that a
lot of the writers who came afterwards didn’t do – they wrote about
the lifestyle with serious literary goals and not just to write a
"shock horror" exposé of the life of an addict. They didn’t
preach. They didn’t sugar coat. I think the big difference is that now
we are living in an age where our understanding of what it is to be an
addict is different and we are now in a kind of
"post-addicted" age where everybody in America it seems feels
that they are addicted to something. Now therapy treatment is big
business. We are so quick to label people alcoholics or addicts these
days when in fact most of the time they are neither. It takes many
months and many injections to make an addict. And the therapy that is
pushed on us now – the 12-step cure, the idea that addiction is a
"disease" is more wrong-headed than what we had in the old
days. Back when Burroughs and Huncke were addicts, there was still the
tail end of the old system where doctors would be willing to prescribe
opiates to opiate addicts. Now the situation is much more dire and as a
result the life of an addict now if a much more desperate and extreme.
As the war on drugs has ground on, the addicts have multiplied, the
drugs have changed and the situation has deteriorated terribly. If it
wasn’t for prohibition, we wouldn’t have the crack and
methamphetamine problem that we have now. Crack is a creation of
prohibition – a form of the drug that is smaller, cheaper, and
nastier. If those who wanted to use cocaine were able to get it from a
pharmacist, then nobody would have had to market this cheaper, smaller
version of the drug. So in a way, while Trocchi and Burroughs chronicled
the beginning of the war on drugs and its effect on the addict, my books
are in many ways a reflection of the conditions that addicts find
themselves in after decades of this nonsense. More addicts, cheaper
drugs, more guns, and a virtual police state. Well-done prohibition!
MF: Okay, give me some flash
feedback – one quick sentence/thought – on these folks:
Alexander Trocchi … TO: My
favourite existentialist.
Hank Williams … TO: Thinking
of how much I like Hank Williams’ stuff just makes me realize how
terrible modern country is. You couldn’t get me to listen to modern
country if you put a gun to my head.
Margaret Thatcher … TO: I
cannot begin to tell you what a bogeyman Thatcher was growing up in the
North of England. From what she did to the miners, to the Hunger
Strikers; I mean really she was just a terrible, terrible human being.
She’s still alive, isn’t she? Somebody should drive a stake through
her heart and get it over with.
Hubert Selby … TO: God – an
amazing, amazing writer. If I had to pick one by him it would be a toss
up between Requiem for a Dream, which took the junkie novel to
new levels of Shakespearian tragedy, or The Room, which is one of
the most underrated and greatest of modern American novels.
John Lydon … TO: I love John
Lydon. Even now he’s pissing people off. I love that he does stuff
that even pisses off of the punks. He’s one of those great British
eccentrics and in terms of his music – well, shit, put on "Swan
Lake" by Public Image Limited and then listen to how safe, boring a
dull 90 per cent of modern alternative music sounds compared to it.
MF: Okay, back to Down and Out on
Murder Mile with the next few questions. In this passage (and
elsewhere in Down and Out on Murder Mile) you portray drugs
favourably:
On the train I think that maybe right
here, right now, I am the most beautiful man alive, because everyone is
beautiful when they are high: I start to realize that the war on drugs
is a war on beauty – a war on perfection, because everything is
perfect on heroin – it is a war against the simple human aspiration of
complete contentment, and the thought makes me sad – that we are
waging such a pointless and spiteful war against the noblest part of our
own nature.
I’m fine with this but some
readers might get snotty and accuse you of being morally irresponsible
or some such shit. What’s your take on this?
TO: I am a realist. If you are going to
put needles in your arm multiple times a day, if you are willing to make
yourself destitute, homeless, desperate and sick to do this, then you
know something? It must feel pretty good. And it does. The problem today
is that we have a kind of cultural amnesia when it comes to drugs and
that is because we have been on the receiving end of a propaganda and
information war on drugs that is totally unprecedented. No politician in
America (or most other countries) has ever spoken the truth about drugs.
And in lying about it, legislating against it and fighting this totally
unwinnable war, they have created a generation of drug users that is
much bigger and much more uncontrollable that the original
"problem" was. Since politicians are incapable of telling the
truth about drugs, then it is up to artists. Because somebody has to do
it! Because of the propaganda war we have parents who would be horrified
to learn that their kid is smoking weed but they’re okay with drinking
alcohol, which is a pretty screwed up state of events. My job is not to
advocate drug use – because that’s as stupid as telling people NOT
to do it. But my job is to try to cut through the bullshit a little bit.
And my God, there’s a lot of bullshit out there.
MF: Likewise, the high might be
beautiful, but consider the process, as reflected in this passage from
the novel:
And then in the toilet of the Kings
Mall, a depressing Stalinist concrete façade, holed up in the filthy
dark cubicle with one foot wedged against the lockless door listening to
the homeless guy in the next stall take a spluttering liquid shit, the
smell filling the whole place, I’d cook up my shot and thread the
needle into my gooseflesh, probing for a vein … thick black blood
dripping down my forearm, spotting my jeans, forming dark pools on the
piss-wet tiles.
Where’s the beauty here? Or is it
this sort of ugliness that contributes to the beauty of the high when
the dope hits?
TO: Life on heroin is a life of
extremes – extreme peace, extreme joy and extreme horror. And just as
I will not shy away from telling the reader how amazing an armful of
strong Afghan dope is, I will not shy away from the other aspects of the
day-to-day existence of an addict. I suppose my job as a writer is to be
able to talk about the joy and the horror with equal compassion.
MF: Is it really our nature to alter
our ugly reality through drugs to see true beauty? Is this what art,
specifically, a superb novel, can do?
TO: I would hope so. Since quitting
heroin over 5 years ago, I have slowly found my way back to that kind of
elation in other ways. Writing being one of them. I do feel that drugs
are a tool, just like any other. If we were allowed to use drugs in a
non-pressurized environment (i.e., without the fear of arrest, the
artificial prices, the drug gangs, etc.) our experience with them would
be very different. Unfortunately, that is not the way the world is. So
instead those who want to know what drugs are about are forced to break
the law and they are forced to take their chances. Human beings are a
curious bunch and asking people not to do something is a great way to
get them interested in doing it. While heroin specifically did inspire
me in many ways, it also took a lot away from me and I still live under
the shadow of addiction today. And that can be a tough pill to swallow
sometimes. A sustained period of addiction awakens something in you that
you can never really overcome. It becomes very easy to slip back into
the behaviour that almost killed you.
MF: In Down and Out you come
down hard on the recovery industry:
The lie at the heart of treatment
centres, the recovery industry, and self-help groups is that life off
drugs is any better than life on them. A preposterous idea. The two
states coexist in a parallel sense – to say that one is preferable to
the other is to miss the point entirely.
What’s your beef with NA and other
similar agencies?
TO: Well, my beef isn’t really with
NA or the 12 steps. It’s with the fact that for most addicts it is the
only option they have. I met many, many great people when I tried it
that way, but it simply didn’t work for me. My problem with that way
of doing it was the idea that addiction is a disease, which I frankly
think is nonsense. Tell someone who is dying of cancer that a person who
has used a lot of heroin has a "disease". Addiction does not
just fall from the sky and land on top of you one day. You have to work
at becoming an addict. You know the risks and you do it anyway and one
day your body, your brain, your metabolism changes, and you become
dependent on a substance. And it doesn’t happen with every substance.
It is impossible to be "addicted" to marijuana, despite
everything your government has told you. Addiction is a matter of
exposure, which is a different thing.
My other problem with the 12 steps is
that it preaches total abstinence for the rest of your life. I believe
that it IS possible for say a hardcore heroin addict to be able to drink
normally, to be able to smoke weed, even to be able to indulge in the
odd line or pill if they so choose. In fact I think that in some cases
marijuana is helpful to the heroin addict looking to quit for good. To
tell a heroin addict that a glass of lager constitutes a
"relapse" is self-defeating and wrong.
My problem is that there are NO
alternatives. I find the whole commercialization of the recovery
industry to be sickening. TV shows like "Intervention" and the
like talk about AA and NA as if they have a proven track record. Failure
rates in the 12-step program are as high as among people why try to quit
on their own. Yet we are sold recovery snake oil by people like Doctor
Drew (who is fast becoming the Goebbels of the recovery industry; its
number one mouthpiece and propagandist). Why? Because
"recovery" is big business now. And the best kind of cures are
the kind that require lengthy stays in rehab at 3 thousand a month and
that require return visits because the failure rates are so high. I find
Doctor Drew to be more of a ghoul than the drug dealers. He has gotten
rich off of the backs of addicts and he doesn’t even have the decency
to sell them something that is any use to them. If you want to cure
people’s addiction, give them legal access to their drugs until they
decide that they want to quit. And if they don’t, give them legal
access to their drugs until they die. Everything else is just pissing in
the wind.
MF: Again, as a change of pace, give
me some flash feedback – one quick sentence/thought – on these
folks:
Stewart Home … TO: Love
Stewart Home. Read Slow Death when I was 16 and it affected me so
deeply that everything I wrote for a while sounded like him. We need
more literary anarchists like him.
Nick Cave … TO: I dig Cave a
lot. I love the Birthday Party, too. And Jesus, he is a pretty good
writer as well. Nice moustache.
Herbert Huncke … TO: Huncke
has a mythic importance to my writing. The Herbert Huncke Reader
was a revelation to me. I have no idea why he wasn’t one of the most
famous beats. He’s definitely someone that I wished I’d gotten the
chance to meet.
Amy Winehouse … TO: Poor Amy
Winehouse. You know what she needs? She needs to be left alone. Although
I’m not crazy about the music, I do dig her influences and find her to
be more interesting than most pop singers out there. In the old days she’d
have come through her drug phase and nobody would have known the
difference. Now with all of the tabloid attention who knows if she’ll
even make it? You can’t use drugs normally under those circumstances.
Also, I feel it’s a bit sexist, the way that the press has targeted
her. When I was in bands plenty of people were doing crack, heroin and
anything else they could get their hands on. But that was considered
"boys being boys". But the press seemingly won’t give a
female that kind of leeway …
Charles Bukowski … TO: Love
his poetry, love his prose. I even liked Pulp the book that his
fans seemed to hate. That said, some of the posthumous stuff has been a
bit crappy, but what can you expect? I’d be mortified if people
started putting out my unpublished shit. I’ve got some stinkers in
there myself.
MF: Okay, I hear Dan Fante – a
major influence for you (I love the guy’s work too) – is also
stepping into the centre ring, with his next novel due to come out with
Harper Perennial. What’s going on here? Is this the start of some sort
of trend? Is the literary underground being brought into the mainstream
or are the big presses getting more daring? What’s up?
TO: I think this is all down to Harper
Perennial to be honest. I think that the situation there is pretty
unique – there’s a great bunch of people there who are putting out
all kinds of exciting writers – Fante, Dennis Cooper’s new book is
coming out on Perennial, they just put out Sebastian Horsley’s memoir Dandy
in the Underworld – it seems that it is really their aim to give
Perennial a distinct identity in the way that Grove Press had in the
60s, or Olympia had, and yet they are a part of the HarperCollins family
that puts out stuff like Dr Drew’s nonsense and Bill O fucking Reilly.
Somehow the Perennial imprint seems to be some kind of breakaway
kamikaze squad of editors who can do what they want and they all seem to
have good taste.
MF: You’ve been identified as part
of a new breed of writers. I’ve read about "Brutalism". What’s
it all about? What writers characterize this sort of writing? How? What
other underground writers or scenes do you think are significant?
TO: You know, I feel that all of these
new writers coming up who have been tagged as brutalists writers, or
"offbeat generation" writers have a shared
"outsider" status. You know when I started writing I was
publishing online, when that was considered to be somehow not
"real" publishing. But it was democratic and you didn’t have
to wait for 6 months to get rejected by some mainstream magazine. If you
were getting rejected it would take a week tops, ha-ha. But a lot of
these young writers for whom the magazines were just too inaccessible
started publishing there and critiquing each other and corresponding and
it was very healthy. And then a lot of these same writers made the jump
to print but on their own terms – self-publishing, indie presses and a
few on mainstream houses. But in terms of an overall aesthetic, there
really isn’t one. I’m off doing my thing, over in Ohio Noah Cicero
is washing dishes and writing these angry novels that come across like a
mix of Samuel Beckett and The Clash. Ben Myers is writing somewhere in
between Lester Bangs and Richard Brautigan. Tom McCarthy is
deconstructing the novel altogether with "remainder"… I mean
it’s a pretty broad church.
MF: You’re what, 32 years old? I
read in another interview that you feel you’ve amassed experiences
beyond your years; that you’ve got a stock of past experiences to draw
on for your writing. Have you written all that you can on heroin and
drug culture? Or is there more to come?
TO: I’m 30 … And for the moment I’m
taking a break from writing directly about my own experiences. However,
the world of drugs and prohibition is just such fertile ground for me
that the next one will still be set in Hollywood and will be about the
recovery industry and the drug scene. It’s a novel that I’ve had in
my head for a long time and something I really need to do before I
return to the overall narrative that spawned Digging and Down
and Out.
MF: Let’s end with a quote from
Bukowski for you to consider: "The language of a man’s writing
comes from where he lives and how." This perfectly describes Down
and Out on Murder Mile and Digging the Vein. But is the
language of your writing set to change, as I understand where and how
you live has changed (e.g., you’re a father, living and working in New
York, rather than London or LA)? If so, how will your writing change? Or
is Bukowski full of shit here?
TO: I think Bukowski hit it on the
head. And that’s why most mainstream writing is so unbearably fucking
dull. People go to school, get into a great MFA program and then sit
down to write a great novel without ever having actually gotten their
hands dirty in the real world. That’s why their writing is so
constipated and dull. My writing is changing and evolving all of the
time. And it’s not so say that after heroin life suddenly became a bed
of roses. It doesn’t work like that. In a way it becomes harder,
because you don’t have the insulation of hard drugs and the focus of
having to score them. So in a way, my horizons have grown rather than
shrunk. I’m not sure exactly how it will change in the future but
however it changes I’m excited to see it … because if you ain’t
moving forward you’re dead, you know?
Matthew Firth’s
latest book is the short story collection Suburban Pornography and
Other Stories (Anvil Press, 2006). He is also editor and publisher
of the lit-mag Front&Centre and Black Bile Press chapbooks. A
tardy, unshaven office worker by day, he lives in Ottawa with his dear
wife Andrea and two sons: Sam and Willem. |