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If I were a man if this were my city like I just
heard yesterday someone on the radio, the AM station, 1130, I found
out about on the Talking Yellow Pages, they have a little ad for it
that comes on before the weather Lock Your Radio the station
I turn on to hear if thereve been any accidents the announcer
said Capilaino, like Denny Boyd says old Vancouverites pronounce
it
*
Nicks driving
along
Venables
& I look at the sun
this
late September
afternoon, daylight saving
still
hangs
high in the sky
*
This is being written just after noon on September 22, 1999 probably
the last day of this gentle, warm late summer that followed a cold,
rainy August. Im perched on a welded steel stool leaning on the
steel counter of a pomo coffee shop which I guess is called Trees Organic
Coffee Co. (at least thats what it says on my coffee cup
dark Sumatra coffee the image the image of the map
of Indonesia from the Globe & Mail & the BBC on-line
in mind) east side of Granville just north of Pender
this soft bright sunlight off the young maples on the Mall light
& shadow sharply delineated on the pavement to right, Sinclair
Centre the old Post Office where the 1938 demonstration
/ police riot still goes on, black-coated arm upraised coming down on
the men running away escaping down the short flight of steps at the
entrance on Hastings St., now Plaza Escada dress shop
so are we (tuna sandwiches) now at lunch time seated at round tables
with red & yellow chessboards on them & painted scalloped edges
in two shades of green, behind a low ornamental steel railing - &
people walking the Mall, two men stopping to talk between the potted
plants, one wearing a madras jacket, hand on hip to indicate mid-morning
ennui bicycles, buses
I really dont know what Im
doing this is not the world. Its just my take. My lucky
take. My sunny day September take.
Allen Ginsberg said he once dropped acid & went up on a mountain
in Wyoming to sit & experience in sympathy all the suffering in
the world.
*
Bright light, sharp outlines
of
September
*
The boys & girls
at
dawn
Their dawn
Wipe
out
childhood.
They
arent even young yet.
*
Take refuge in a long poem.
Avert
inspiration.
*
Write carelessly.
*
On the 210 tempted now to add a little local colour as
it lags behind the 4 now passes signs on fence
on Powell St. Subway - &
Vancouver
Today.com
virtually
all you need to know
& now turns north on Nanaimo once imagined living here
near here near the PNE all this too thoughtful
write carelessly, head down, feeling furrow of brow, weight of glasses
peripherally sunlit street & cars, shadows, going
by head up into no thought, even though all this district
no place to go the irremediable gulf not between
being & nothingness
Angela
Bowering
in
Kerrisdale,
a
town
Here is no conflict, no choice the breeze the Ironworkers
Memorial a colour I used to call Prussian blue Bridge
the inlet trees, boats, the forested mountain bluer
mountains behind just here
Angela
on her last afternoon
spent
her last afternoon
with
the Finnish genealogists
exchanging
information
to be there by being stop the slide regretful towards,
always a not-ness, a not there by consciousness, participating
in the illusion, that doesnt just run one way entropy
but has many mansions, some furnished, some just waiting for
Angela, by insisting
on disbelief to grin. This is not not, this is where not is exposed,
laid open to view
& shown to contain
precise distinctions almost the 0 & 1 from which 2 arises
in defiance of pristine
order hors doeuvres, instead start over
*
The pleasure of getting on the 7
in the chill morning
&
something must follow
something non-reciprocal
stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck
all the while the sun this is still
September (last day) - & the long
shadows before 9 a.m. is this all
sometimes the mind
is
just aware of its
dumbness the skull the unnerving
pathos (unjustified, yes, Ill always
scream
is that all, just
location, location, location a grid,
the special sciences
dutiful, perfunctory & yet a pleasure
not to have any meaning interfere,
long, drawn-out, even before its thought.
Lets
be clear
(blank) theres nothing to say here
(quick bump of the tires over the train tracks & now
emerging from beneath the overpass,
& back to reading Paterson
on the Granville bridge
*
She wore a red hat. Flat-brimmed.
She wore a flat-brimmed red hat.
It was at Sharons place, on West 18th.
It was New Years Eve. Michael Ondaatje was there.
She wore a flat-brimmed red hat & she grinned.
She grinned with delight. With the delight
of disbelief, as if her disbelief had cleared
the air. Like a hailstorm, sweet sun
to follow.
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