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By: Austin Clarke
From: Currents Vol.7, No.1 p.5
© 1991 Urban Alliance on Race Relations
TIME WAS HEAVY UPON BJ'S NERVES. HE PACED UP AND DOWN his room, with
various thoughts entering his head, and leaving him no closer to a solution
of the things that were bothering him. He paced up and down, not hav ing
enough length in the square room, to make his pacing more dramatic and satisfying.
And when he realized the restriction of the small square room, his mind
bounded back to a time, which he had almost wiped from his memory.
He recalled the time when he had spent three hours in a police station,
in a cell, alone; not knowing really why he was being locked up; not having
a charge made against him; not having a policeman enter the cell and interrogate
him about the alleged theft of a kid's bicycle: when one afternoon in August,
he and three other kids were horsing around near the grocery store, trying
to raise enough quarters to buy ice cream, when this other kid came wobbly
on his bicycle, his first, his present from his mother for Christmas past;
and one of the three other kids took the bike playfully from the little
kid, and the little kid started to cry, and ran home with tears in his eyes;
and told his mother, and his father returned with him, sunburnt arms bristling
with black hairs, and chest like a barrel under a nylon undershirt, with
his underpants showing just above the waist of his green janitor's trousers,
when the kid, whose vision was blinded with tears, raised his finger and
pointed at the coloured fella, dad, the coloured fella took my bike; and
all hell broke loose; and the cops came screammg down the avenue, two carloads
of them, to solve this little neighbourhood kid's prank; and slam!, into
the goddamn cruiser you goddamn nigger, and BJ did not understand the various
languages and accents, Portuguese and Italian, being spewed at him; no explanation
in the eyes of the man who owned the peddling store, and who was holding
the melting cone of ice cream and with no quarters to stop his disappearing
profits; no explanation from his three friends, now no longer within ear
shot; no understanding from the father, ripping the air with gestures which
BJ thought were karate chops intended for him, and no understanding from
the four cops who descended armed and sunburnt, like the father, to solve
this serious crime: git, goddamn, git! into the damn cruiser! no, not in
the goddamn front seat, in fucking back, where you belong; and they took
him down, and did not book him, and put him into a nice large cell, bigger,
goddamn nigger than the piss-small room you and you goddamn modher lives
in! and left him there to stew and to mend his thieving ways; and then hours
later, the truth was known, and the sargeant with a styrofoam cup of steaming
coffee; have a cup, come now, have a cuppa; and then said, a little mistake,
if you can understand what I mean, a little goddamn mistake, and you happened
to the goddarnn unlucky one.So beat it, kid, and don't let me lay my goddamn
eyes you, again!
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